Friday, June 08, 2012


Taken 3rd of June 2011.

When I look at this photo, so many feelings and thoughts flood my mine. Lately I've found myself reading a few blog posts from the archives, revisiting 'once' memories and reflecting on how I was feeling, this time last year especially. I've always been one to reflect, to evaluate past situations to see what I have gained/lost from them. There is one saying that strikes a cord with me... "You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one". With this, looking back can not always do you good and it will be probably best to drop it all and get on with it. Here in this photo, I see a young, vulnerable, naive yet somewhat determined girl that I'm having trouble recognising... yet still, remember her wants, dreams and desires she had back then. Some of them I have managed to fulfill, and some of them I'm still chasing. I know life gets quicker as you get older and becomes so much more complicated, you may happen to miss out on the small things that make up life, relationships and those particular special moments. I am grateful for all that has happened in the last year, the good and the bad - as it has shaped the person I am today and wouldn't of wanted it any other way. I feel I've managed to get through one of the biggest roller coaster rides of my life so far and has prepared me to jump on the next one. Whatever comes my way, I'm gonna take it as it comes and not linger on what ifs, what abouts and instead let life take it's course... Cause no matter what, it will and you really cannot stop it.

Taken 4th of June 2011.

Present, 2012.

So a note to self: don't sweat the small stuff and instead look at the bigger picture. Continue smiling and stop second-guessing. I would like to thank all of you who have stopped by this little online place of mine, especially to those who have continued to drop by since the very beginning. I bid you farewell the year of 23 and welcome a new one. Here. We (I). Go!!

x Lauren

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  1. AnonymousJune 08, 2012

    LOVE this post Lauren. It's nice to see the girl behind all the glitz and glamour.

    Happy writing and photographing and I wish you the best in the land of 24.
    Chloe Higgins

  2. happy birthday, keep posting the amazing content, outfits and photos you already do!
    love your blog, very inspiring :)

  3. SO CUTE! love ya!! xx

  4. And look at you now! Happy birthday love and I'm sure you'll go even further come next year xx

  5. Such a cuuuute post, and i am IN LOVE with your hair! Followed you honey!

  6. great post, love how you've written it!!
    and you look awesome, great outfit!!